Hello loves’
This must be a pretty darn good week seeing I am serving two
posts. Thing is, August has been quite the month. It has been a time for me to
stop sitting pretty and to shake things up. I am so glad I finally got the guts
to do something ballsy. I reckon I could stay in this safe zone and keep
whining or I could grow some balls (YES I SAID BALLS) and learn how to fly. Yeah
pretty difficult choice’ I know.
Life is one complicated puzzle. Sometimes I sit and wonder
if there is someone out there who really has it all together…maybe Iyanla Vanzant’ Deepak Chopra and those self-help
gurus. Do they really have it together or are we all just trying to be? I don’t
know about them but what I know for sure is that I haven’t had it together
since God knows when. I may act and look like it but heaven knows I am so lost
and broken. God is wonderful. Because I wake each day, I smile and show the
world that am okay. I know it really doesn’t matter how lost I may feel at
times because one day I will find my way home. (Home; here is a metaphor; for finding
me)
If you have been an ardent reader of my blog then by know
you know I love a good rant. Though I would hate to be that kind of person who
rants on the regular so am taking time to stop for a minute and smell those
roses kindah like trying not to get caught up in this cycle. Next week I turn
freaking 26 (yep) don’t let the body size fool you. I am a grown lass. Last year
I turned the big 25 (in my head; one should have figured out what they are by
then)…I still felt I hadn’t. This past year has been one of a kind; with the
blog, family, friends and life. I have had to sit and make some bold choices
because I felt I couldn’t hold out any longer. I dint want to be that girl that
sat and watched as life passed her by. I couldn’t live with myself years from
now looking at how little I ‘d accomplished
just because I was scared to test the waters so I made a point to stir things
up.
I have no freaking idea what is out there and yeah I am
scared as f*** but if I don’t try I will never know. In Chris Brown's
song 'Don't judge me' he says’ ‘ it could get ugly before it gets beautiful…’ so am living by these last words and hoping that chapter 26
moving on upward could get ugly…but please God; please by all means possible …let
it get beautiful.
It’s true that we can’t have a rainbow without a little rain. So yeah those days are bound to happen but let the bigger picture be incredible.
I am sitting here typing away because I feel like there is so much I want to
say but I have to hold back. Something’s are better kept to yourself but I hope
someone reads this and feels like they could go out there and live. This blog
as I may have mentioned a kazillion times will always hold a dear place in my
heart. It is because of this little avenue offered by Google that I actually
lived as corny as that may sound. I must admit I have been cheating on my diary
a lot with this blog because I feel like I have a voice here. It may not be
major one but I speak to someone regardless.
In my moments of solitude I find myself coming here and
getting that happy feeling back into my life. So taking some time off from it
will be helluva hard thing to do but something’s gotta give Gotta work on what I
feel is missing then probably catch up with y’all. Once in a while I’ll do a
post but I aint making any promises. To my followers I appreciate the love so
much. I really do. You believed in me. I hope I get better once am back on and I
hope y’all will stick around.
In Justin Timberlake’s mega hit Mirrors he says ‘yesterday
is history ‘tomorrow is a mystery’ and these words resonate with me. Tomorrow
is untold, all we do is hope that it turns out okay. Our yesterdays have all
but stopped and are neatly put away. All that’s left now is a brand new day,
brand new choices, brand new vision and a brand new us and it is up to us yes (
I speak in general here) to make tomorrow count and to ask God to let it be
beautiful.
Moving on..my post today was supposed to be about Nairobi
Fashion Week but being the chatty Cathy that I am I got carried away. (Virgos
speak their darn minds) lol.
NFW was one word; exhilarating. (Saying more will be total
absurdity; let the pictures speak for themselves)
Quick S/O to the guy that made it happen ‘James (I owe you big
time) it was truly beautiful!
Xo Sue
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| turnt up.. |
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| all white everything; my favorite collection |
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| kente magic....missed the ankara jumpsuit i so loved' |
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| pretty amaze night' |
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| I sure hope so.. |
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