A NEW KIND OF HAPPY

 Hey lovely people,

first of my heartfelt apology for being so M.I.A for the last couple of months. yours truly has been on a soul searching journey as corny as that may sound. the past few months have been this blur...me figuring out what i really want, who i really am away from home; away from the only family  i ever knew. i stepped out into an unkown zone ....blindly not knowing what was in it for me and all i had was faith; buckets of it and a dream. 

its been close to three months now and altough its really hard to keep it together at times. i am getting by just fine. i thank God so much for giving me a mum who not only believes in me but one who would go through hell and high water to see to it that am ok. being far away from her and my sis has hit me hardest but in this  life we gotta make sacrifices. we have to go for whatever it is we feel is out there or lest keep wondering where life would have taken us if we dared to dream a little dream .

i am quite the dreamer; and a pretty unrealistic one at that. i imagine all this things happening around me and wish i could grasp a minute of that kind of magic. reality does hit me hard on some days,
; days when i question if dreams do really come true, days when i wonder whether it was really worth it leaving an ok life to go chase that grand imaginary one i had but on such days i find my strength in knowing that i serve a God who makes things happen; he has been my biggest motivator and this alone time has brought me closer to him in ways i cant explain.

it would be so careless of me not to mention a few peeps also who have basically been my lifeline for the past months and whom i hope i do for what they do for me. My confidantes and cheerleaders;' kadita, lucy, momy, sissy. "vi ringrazio tanto signore. ti amo sempre"

anywhos am still a fash diehard, going a lil easy on the sprees given my situation but i still try and get my shine on ...still love my music ;Emeli Sandes "imagine" is my get up and go kind of jam, and of course shows that kept a girl alive, devioius maids and mistresses [God this mama dramas will be the death of me] 

Thing is i have found a new kind of happy away from everything that ever mattered a couple of months ago.i am happy here and really looking forward to seeing where this journey takes me. being the free spirit i am; I've discovered some really insane places where i go to get that happy feeling back in my life incase it runs out like this safe haven called Kola Beach Restaurant at Mambrui in Malindi. "if heaven is a place called earth".....yeah its all that and a bag of chips. On matters love {soulmate is still out there somewhere....email him to me when you find him} but a girls been having some fun waiting for him "i don't kiss and tell" lol

so i leave y'all with snippets from a relaxed Sunday with my heroine miss Kadi;she does clean up real good and yours truly all maxed out and my voice of reason Emeli Sande 'Imagine

xo lovies 

p/s thank you.each one of you who reads me. i heart you so

you may say i am a dreamer
but am not the only one ' 

miss Kadi takes a dip..

 

Imagine Emeli Sande

 Imagine there's no heaven, it's easy if you try.
No hell below us, above us only sky.
Imagine all the people, living for today.

Imagine there's no countries, it isn't hard to do.
Nothing to kill or die for, and no religion too.
Imagine all the people, living life in peace. (Oooh, oooh, oooh)

You may say I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one.
I hope some day you will join us, and the world will be as one.

Imagine no possessions, I wonder if you can?
No need for greed or hunger, a brotherhood of man.
Imagine all the people, sharing all the world. (Oooh, oooh, oooh)

You may say I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one.
I hope some day you will join us, and the world will live as one.