Me myself and I
Hello loves’
Over the weekend i was feeling a little down and out so
rather than wallow in self pity i decided to do something to encourage my
spirit. I have a tendency of over thinking stuff which in more cases than one
makes me grow weary of this thing called life. You know growing up you have these
expectations then life hits you and it hits you real hard. I bet y’all agree
with me on this one that we all have those days’ days when the sun don’t shine
and you feel broken-hearted... so i was kindah going through something like
that and on such days i like to be left to my own devices.
I decided to go somewhere and take stock. Rethink my life
and connect with me. It was kindah like a one woman date’ me getting to know me;
as corny as that may sound. To tell y’all the truth’ i did find me’ i listened
to myself and found those loose chords that strained my journey and made it
more difficult. My resolution at the end of it was to steer away from fear...to
be very grateful to God for all those present things i take for granted and to
go for it...whatever my dream is’ to go for it.
Before i get all preachy..lemmi just quote this excerpt from
moonlights ago’ i can’t recall where i got it from exactly but i remember
feeling drawn to what the writer was talking about(soul evolution)
“I’d like to see my life being about the evolution of my
soul. I’d like to see my life being about expressing and experiencing that part
of me. The truth is i would like to do more than just survive. I’ve been
surviving all this years. I notice i am still here. But i would like the struggle
for survival to end. I see that just getting by from day to day is still a struggle.
I’d like to do more than just survive. I’d like to prosper. What would you call
prospering? Having enough that i don’t have to worry where m next dollar is
coming from; not having to stress and strain just to make ends meet. I mean, i
hate to get mundane, but we are talking real life here, not the airy-fairy, spiritually
romanticised picture of life you draw throughout.”
So after a relaxed Sunday afternoon’ i went home feeling
rejuvenated’ like i had accomplished something’ i had tapped into the inner me
and as i was sitting in that bus going home i blasted this song on my earphones
“Praise you in the storm ‘by Casting Crowns and i wiped those tears away and in
that moment i knew i was going to be okay no matter what life brought my way. It
goes something like this
And I’ll praise u in
the storm and I will lift my hands
You are who you are
no matter where i am
Every tear i cry you
hold in your hand
You never left my
side
And though my heart
is torn
I will praise you in
the storm
Lovely week dears
Stay happy’
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